What is it with me?

[Infinite Unity]

You have to learn how to be intimate with and love yourself, before others can learn how to be intimate with you.

That's exceptionally hard to do when you're abusive to yourself by default.
Duly noted, Ms. Jade.

Hopefully one day I will have such back again.

Thought is flexible.

Stop allowing the surface to dictate the internal eternal.

One of the main points of silence is to find the self that generates and is beyond circumstance.(The One is the only thing that is not a Thoughtform, even love is the great original 'THOUGHT'.)

The people that take aim at you, the things they are aiming at, are generated from within themselves. They are aiming at themselves regardless of seemingly aiming at anyone, as we are always and ever the only One.

You are worthy and Loved, you are not odd, you are unique as everyone else is. Other-selves here clamour to "normal" due to fear.