What is it with me?

[GentleReckoning]

I'm tired of hearing people say they don't judge me.  Everyone judges.  I just want people to be real with me, but all I feel like I ever see are...  Things, that aren't them.

Thanks for the kind words and help though.

Ponder form and essence as one. I took the same path as you, focusing on my soul, and not my form. If you are looking for a girlfriend, then you are venturing into realms of status and (abuse really) manipulation that you otherwise don't need to touch.

In that realm, you are looking for a mirror as anyone can watch you talk, walk, or do anything and say: "Hey, tweak this one thing and you're golden." So an open-minded friend really that is willing to risk your feelings for the truth. Because someone taught you wrong, and deep down you know that if someone could see you honestly and clearly that they would be able to nail what's going on.