Vent (Trigger warning)

[Night Owl]

There have been some very valuable advice so far. All I can add is to say that if doing music is what you love, then just do it, don't let anyone or anything stop you. You see doing what you love is the most effective way to stop the train of hopelessness to use anagogy's analogy. And not just that but pain is the best conductor of train. Most music has been written under or after very difficult catalysts. It serves as fuel for passion, emotion and will. It may actually be what you need for inspiration. What else would you use instead anyway? We all need darkness to shine our brightest light. You probably don't even need success with your music to feel good about yourself, that's usually not what's really gratifying, you just need to actively take part in it and that will make you proud no matter what.