STS Orion Crusader here, Polarizatunity.

[Cainite]

Of course, if you wish, you can consider me confused unpolarized third-density
local, that was stricken by an orion crusader to believe in self-aggrandizing
themselves.

I'm closer to thinking you're actually a confused STO. Sure you could play it off like you're just doing that charming superficial thing thing so typical of the STS, but it seems like you are a very long way from that vantablack darkness which the STS seeks. I think you just want to be cool. I agree, the STS path is orders of magnitude more thrilling, more sexy and more fascinating, but you don't actually have to be STS in order to appreciate that.

Anyway, you can be whatever you want on an internet forum. Look at me, I'm a great khan.

Peace. I'm sure you will bring good things to this world.

STS is not more thrilling, or more fascinating. darkness is seductive, yes. but when we know it's illusory most of the fun disappears.
I would love to experience life as a mystic/artist like Hafez, rather than Changiz Khan or Himmler.

Plus, we are not forced to be completely STO.