I'm choosing the negative path.

[Louisabell]

I've made up my mind. This is just a goodbye and an affirmation.

It feels dark and cold and scary, but I'm interested in seeing where my consciousness can go. It gives me a reason for my pain that I can accept. I prefer feeling this way by intention over random suffering.

Any fear is a warning. The darkness can lull you in with promises of power and vengeance. Once upon a time I lived in a state where the only emotion I felt was rage, I embodied it as an essence. I totally committed myself to the dark path, but at the peak, when I saw what the negative path was really about, I cried out to Jesus to save me like a little lamb.

Just thought I should share my experience, and let you know, if it ever goes too far, the forces of light won't abandon you if you call out in earnest. I wish you the best either way, and I'm sorry if there was more we could have done to have made things easier for you in these hard times.