I'm choosing the negative path.

[Mahakali]

I imagine that you got b****-slapped at a point in your life when you were unready to defend yourself. You internalised it (like a lot of us do), and the stimuli is reverberating within your mind like a chaotic ping ball. 

If I am reading the sub text of your posts here on bring4th correctly, does this speak to the heart of what you came here to learn? You know, like cut those demons some slack and give them a little compassion for a change?

Um, I don't know what kind of drugs you're on, but.

Reverberating? Maybe. Probably from a different bitchslap than the one you're thinking of.

>cut those demons some slack and give them a little compassion for a change?

I wasn't being metaphorical. I am talking about literal astral entities that entered the bodies of my friends, caused them to die, and say I'm coming with them at some point.

does this speak to the heart of what you came here to learn?

No. Put the pipe down. I came here because of the wealth of technical information in the Ra and Seth material so that I could press past this and hone my art.

"The heart of what I'm tryng to learn" is to hone it into a fine enough point to slice off the hand that slapped me and pleasure myself with it.

I thought someone here might know how I'd be able to break through these chains and restore my soul. If you've any idea how to do that, I'm begging you to tell me, but so far there's not much technical information other than people offering to send me energy, and I have learned my lesson about accepting gifts from random internet occultists.

I need information about what's going on and what I can do to fix my merkaba.

I recently took on a point of view that I should stop my lusty behavior.
So I deleted my entire porn collection (most was cartoon anthros) and work to keep my vibration high.
I feel a lusty mind can bring down your vibration.
At least in the afterlife I don't want to carry that around with me.

My porn folders are filled with guro and lolicon. Can't stand furshit, myself.

I find that having a lusty mind can raise vibration, and compulsive fapping is the one that does you in. I'm looking at an extended period of straight edge no fap dieting. I'll look at porn because I want to increase my sex hormone production, but I won't touch. Thus the energy has a way to build up.

As one of my favorites rappers said, "When I die, bury me with my comics and porno flicks/So when I go to Hell, I got something to do up in that b****".






Not going there for a long time, though, if ever.

I have stuff to do, and I will. I'll be here for a while...