Understanding my state of trance/PLR

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I remember crying after one week day with my dad and feeling as though I couldn't do anything in my power without hurting my mom's feelings, so a hole in my heart formed.

I would focus on by this. Talk therapy may be a good idea. We have to balance our minds first before the body, and there seems to be a lot to unpack and balance in just this statement.

That was a couple days before this, I talked it out for a bit, understood all sides to the best of my ability, accepted it and forgave myself and others. I'm just really confused because things are happening so fast. Thanks for the tip