03-22-2018, 08:06 PM
(03-22-2018, 07:52 PM)777 Wrote:(03-22-2018, 07:41 PM)johncarson698 Wrote:(03-22-2018, 04:42 PM)777 Wrote: I should have made it clear when I bumped my earlier thread that I don't even know what path I'm on anymore. I've been in a lot of pain for years and it's kept increasing to the current point. I don't know what I'm doing now.
Just curious, have you done any drugs? I, personally, have been pretty balanced my entire life. One time, someone stole the rims off my car and my reaction was "I guess Karma's going to get whoever did this"... But this all ended when i became addicted pain killers. I want to get back to where i use to be, but its a difficult journey and am too in pain. I understand what i need to do, but haven't been able to.
Do you have any plans for what the future holds?
I took many drugs extensively in the past to self-medicate. The ones I haven't touched are crack, methamphetamine, PCP, and intravenous heroin. I have not done any substances since mid-2017 aside from marijuana, which I've barely touched. I have no desire to take anything whatsoever now.
I don't know what I'm going to do. I set up an appointment to get medication for my bipolar disorder next week. If not for familial obligations, I would kill myself immediately.
I think bipolar is caused by major imbalances in your lower 3 energy centers. 1 may be fully blocked while others are wide open. I'm not sure if medications are the answer, maybe temporarily. Some of the folks on here may know better. Its a good idea to research how to remedy it. Meditation and focus might be the key . The one thing i learned through my ordeal is that i never realized how good i felt until i felt so crappy all the time. I also did some things that really surprised myself in order to get pain killers. ive learned alot from my journey and in the process of making it back.