What is is Oneness.

[Infinite Unity]

Then I realize it is not me that is dissolving into oneness.
There is no me.
When I got past this mental block, I became free.

Exactly a me or self is an tool of intelligence by which The Will always revolving, brings into, what it desires.\

I think of it kinda funny that a lot of paradigms constrict themselves to the thought, that the creator can magically just do whatever....When all experiences point in an opposite understanding for me. This is not magical wonderland, the term sacramental nature of all things. To me clearly define such as well.

Its more then just learning in a cold room. The Creator actually is an culmination of all us, literally, in my opinion. I don't think the creator is a static unmoving thing. I believe it moves, evolves, and experiences in an way that cannot be understood. Yet relationships reveal that it exists. As above so below. The Creator in an relative form, is comparable to our own existence.

The pain and suffering is an intelligent variable, that brings about the desire of The Will. To me The Creator desires Love. symptoms, tools, or focuses of Its Will, bring about what The Will desires.

I personally think The Creator had an experience in which The Original Thought which could be as likely named the The Original Memory. Transformed his own Intelligence, in that it could imagine beyond the bounds of singularity. Or begin to imagine concepts of manyness. Such as what we think of as Math, communication, limitation derived from variables. In other words The Creator had an spontaneous realization. A symptom or phenomenon of this event was The Big Bang I believe.