Where do I start?

[JJCarsonian]

Hey Phoenix - totally understand what you're going through. I, myself, have been going through some pains last 5 years or so, and i'm guessing its part of the awakening.

I guess first step is forgiveness and acceptance. Thats advice i'm giving that i have need to do, too.

I find it quite interesting that many people on these boards are going through similar stuff.