Why I awaken as this particular part of creator

[anagogy]

Growth is not contained within any walls its infinite also.

In the sense of cycles I would agree with you. But infinity does not get more infinite. It is already maximal. Perfection doesn't get more perfect. There is nothing for infinity or perfection to grow towards. So the wall of change/growth is perfection/infinity.

Infinity/perfection pretends to be imperfect to have the experience of growth. Not for what the growth will net it but for the experience of growth.

Unless we are just having a semantic discussion here. :)