How to break a spiritual contract made discarnately? (if possible)

[GentleReckoning]

Yo cannon, I feel you.

Your rising would invalidate the subconscious arguments of those in your family/society/group, etc.

The ego-death cycling which you are experiencing is due to the fact that you are consciously aware of your mood/vibration probably at all times. This causes you to invalidate the arguments of those that drift up and down constantly. The blow-back from this kind of conscious manipulation of density is the square wave type of mood swings that you have noticed.

Consciously expressing hate/change to your body via healthier eating and lifting weights actually fulfills the same energetic voids as the ego-death/death wish cycling you are currently experiencing.

Basically the group consciousness is attempting to sideline/destroy/marginalize spiritual or high-vibrational people. This is why so many artists and musicians end up committing suicide. This process when you are on the bottom is manageable, just because you can imagine yourself at the top. If you're at the top and it happens, it's a death-wish and parties.

A stronger body correlates positively with a stronger individual logos on all levels. Hit me up if you want personalized help.