How to break a spiritual contract made discarnately? (if possible)

[Louisabell]

Glad to see you're feeling better.

I've been put through horrific delusions wherein a genuine infinite death as the materialists on Earth believe occurs would be paradise in comparison to the realities I've been induced to believe in whilst suffering depressive states in my bipolar disorder. I had one delusion in which I caused the One Infinite Creator itself to commit suicide, to become the Unconscious Infinite as spoken of in the LOO, and then remake the entirety of creation only to create me again, an infinitesimal probability which must be found eventually, a thing which should not exist for it causes only agony for the creator, only for the Creator to commit suicide again and again in the only method it knew how--to become unconscious yet again, only to inevitably find me again within its endless search in self discovery.

Pretty much sucks to be you at that point. It was satisfying in a way, however, because the reason for it was my "panache" or "chutzpah" that caused the Creator the agony. My personality tone itself was the death of all goodness. It was an attempt to make me service-to-self, I believe, if I'm telling the whole story correctly.

I experienced something similar. It badly shook me and I found it spiritually traumatising. It took a while, but I realise now that I had pushed myself too close to the Infinite Mystery. I didn't understand why my fairytale visions of the Creation had turned on me so badly, and I came close to losing my faith. But I realise now it was just another gate of fire in which debris could be burned away. I now carry with me a clearer understanding of the Mystery.

I wish you the very best in your healing journey, and may I recommend you try to not let high energy phases run away from you. Be gentle with your very cherished soul