Wanderer? My Transformation Story

[REMTravel]

It has come in waves.  It feels as if layer by layer more is uncovered.  I feel like I'm becoming my true self (versus me becoming someone new).  Sometimes that layer involves physical healing - such as the neck pain that I used to get - other times it involves more emotional healing from past experiences.  I also gain greater general understanding in layers.  I now feel very connected to my higher self as well.

What do you mean by dark times?  Is this based on your own experience?

I do eat healthier.. although I will say that I've always been a healthy eater.  I find that foods don't taste as they used to though. For example, some foods are too sweet or salty.  I was a pesco vegetarian prior to this and continue this diet.  I honestly eat mostly vegan.. not necessarily intentionally but find I feel best when I eat lots of fresh veggies and avoid processed food.  I eat a lot of salads, stir fry, nuts, fruits.  More strikingly in my diet; however, is that I have almost completely given up alcohol.  I just find I am happier without it.  No judgements of others who enjoy it of course!  It's interesting because after a "wave" I find myself eating more food and craving food in its more natural form.  

I just want to say also that my intention for sharing my story was by no mean to brag! (I just re-read my original post)  I am grateful every day for my experience, and I am devoting my life to help others find a path towards healing - body and spirit.

Ree

Your post and thread resonate so much.

I struggled with alcohol abuse for years and am now more than 3 weeks sober - nothing crazy for most, but for me its a lot. I have also had deeply insightful experiences in the last few weeks about my identity - or true self, as you said. For the first time, I find myself considering my actions and words rather than impulsively acting. Many of these changes I attribute to the following quote from Session 15:

15.12 Questioner: How does an individual go about balancing himself? What is the first step?

Ra: I am Ra. The steps are only one; that is, an understanding of the energy centers which make up the mind/body/spirit complex. This understanding may be briefly summarized as follows. The first balancing is of the Malkuth, or Earth, vibratory energy complex, called the red-ray complex. An understanding and acceptance of this energy is fundamental. The next energy complex, which may be blocked is the emotional, or personal complex, also known as the orange-ray complex. This blockage will often demonstrate itself as personal eccentricities or distortions with regard to self-conscious understanding or acceptance of self.

The third blockage resembles most closely that which you have called ego. It is the yellow-ray or solar plexus center. Blockages in this center will often manifest as distortions towards power manipulation and other social behaviors concerning those close and those associated with the mind/body/spirit complex.

Thank you for reading