Judging your own actions

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I was just thinking of something I did earlier today. My reaction was ''why the hell did you do that?''. there's often no actual harm in the action/expression yet the perceived lack of balance bothers me.

I think I should just take it easy.. we're all confused after all and make lots of little mistakes daily.
But on the other hand the easy going mindset can prevent growth/hinder change.

What do you think?

I can relate, happens to me if I smoke weed.

I think it has to do with orange ray blockage. Since you're probably not using this ray to overpower or enslave, and perhaps in that proccess supressing it to a point of not giving your own self enough compassion, acceptance and love, it becomes deficient, confused.

I doubt someone can give you the answers on how to accept yourself, that only you can.

But perhaps sharing and relating can cast away some fear or doubt. That's what I hope for when I share such topics regarding myself.

P.s. meditation, goaless meditation, whatever the thoughts or feelings, enjoy the moment. Don't be afraid to be an expression of the creator.

Love and light.