I've got a problem

[Foha]

I have been feeling downtrodden lately as well.

Some friends I hold dear are drifting away from me, and I from them. One is joining the military and insists on getting in combat, which I can't understand or agree with. We end up in arguments when I search fervently for a subject we can talk about peacefully.

I have trouble keeping up with my responsibilities now that I have a full time job and school coming soon.

When I do find time, I try to spend it practicing skills towards my interests, which ultimately end up rewarding only me, and not others.

I feel misguided at best, and selfish at worst.

The ones I look to for guidance have not really gotten back to me in a long time. One of my role models has basically given me the middle finger for not really responding favorably to sexual advances.

I don't really know what to do right now, but I feel exhausted.

But, as usual, I feel a strong will to go on, and fix these problems one at a time.

If anything, it is showing me the greatest flaws in my character with real examples where I fail so I can fix them.
I decide to appreciate these chances to better myself and strive towards something greater, and seeing you in the same situation makes me feel less alone.

I hope that we both get through this hardship and come out stronger on the other side.

And maybe next time we will be able to appreciate the universe in all moments without feeling so hopeless