08-26-2018, 11:45 PM
I don't think anyone finds themselves as evil.
I certainly don't think of him that way.
He believes he is training me in the best way he knows how. In the guidance of someone who places highest importance on power and wealth. He told my brother and I that worldly success is number 1 and family comes second.
He appeals to me in ways he would understand when he was younger, and details stories of himself robbing dealerships of cars on test drives at gunpoint.
I believe him when he says he has the best intentions for me. I just feel like he is not doing it in a way that is healthy.
He uses fear tactics to control me. He has admitted to installing tracking software on my personal computer without my consent to verify what I said. One example was when he asked me how long I played games that day. I said I'm not sure. He said to guess. I guessed one hour and a half. He said I lied to him, and that I actually played for exactly 3.2hours and at what time. He had a smug look. I had no idea how he could have known, but I confirmed that it was around the time that I did play, and conceded I might have lost track of time. He insisted I knew and lied to him. The lesson I learned was I lacked discipline in managing my time, for I didn't have an accurate memory of how much time was spent.
He used to be a trouble maker. I have never been in trouble with the law. He has changed to a remarkably driven and focused person, with an amazing work ethic. The truth is, I do admire him for many of his qualities. I just don't appreciate his fear tactics and manipulative, deceptive methods, nor can I relate to his materialistic teachings and views. I feel like I'm fairly reasonable, but I find it impossible to reason with the man.
Please believe what you want to. You'd have to meet him for yourself, as I'm sure I have biases I'm unaware of. I don't blame you for not trusting me. I'm sure my story sounds ridiculous, but I'm sure I deserve it somehow.
I certainly don't think of him that way.
He believes he is training me in the best way he knows how. In the guidance of someone who places highest importance on power and wealth. He told my brother and I that worldly success is number 1 and family comes second.
He appeals to me in ways he would understand when he was younger, and details stories of himself robbing dealerships of cars on test drives at gunpoint.
I believe him when he says he has the best intentions for me. I just feel like he is not doing it in a way that is healthy.
He uses fear tactics to control me. He has admitted to installing tracking software on my personal computer without my consent to verify what I said. One example was when he asked me how long I played games that day. I said I'm not sure. He said to guess. I guessed one hour and a half. He said I lied to him, and that I actually played for exactly 3.2hours and at what time. He had a smug look. I had no idea how he could have known, but I confirmed that it was around the time that I did play, and conceded I might have lost track of time. He insisted I knew and lied to him. The lesson I learned was I lacked discipline in managing my time, for I didn't have an accurate memory of how much time was spent.
He used to be a trouble maker. I have never been in trouble with the law. He has changed to a remarkably driven and focused person, with an amazing work ethic. The truth is, I do admire him for many of his qualities. I just don't appreciate his fear tactics and manipulative, deceptive methods, nor can I relate to his materialistic teachings and views. I feel like I'm fairly reasonable, but I find it impossible to reason with the man.
Please believe what you want to. You'd have to meet him for yourself, as I'm sure I have biases I'm unaware of. I don't blame you for not trusting me. I'm sure my story sounds ridiculous, but I'm sure I deserve it somehow.
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