How to find a teacher.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

An important question would be:

Do you really wanr to become a serious "real shaman" or is it enough for you to learn some techniques and just call yourself a shaman?

TO be honest dude. I dunno. I'm not concerned with the "shaman " label. I honestly couldn't give a flying f*** what you call me.

I decided to take up the path of the new age healer because a new age healer recommended it and because I feel like it can teach me to heal myself when , say, being psychically attacked by negative entities.

I would like to know how to detect this negative energy and how to clear it. Yes, I KNOW that no techniques are going to make up for proper inner work. You all can save that crap right now, because I honestly get the feeling you're going to give me that like I don't know.

I'm NOT, I repeat NOT wanting to use healing techniques as a replacement for serious tackling of my own personal issues.

I simply want to be able to clear these things which make my issues EVEN WORSE (and in the case of psychic attack, deliberately so)


Maybe I DON'T wanna be a healer or shaman. MAybe I just want to learn enough to defend myself and transmute whatever gets thrown at me. And maybe if I get into it more, I'll start to really learn to appreciate the actual ways of a shaman. Is there really a problem with that?

You don't think I'm serious, but I am. I'm dead serious. But maybe I'm serious about the techniques and not the actual "Way" of shamanism, like you're describing. But I wouldn't DARE assert that I just "wanna learn a few techniques and CALL myself a shaman" as if that's what's important to me, is some stupid fucking label/identity. I'm wanting to learn the healing arts because I feel I NEED to.

So does anybody have any suggestions or help for me?

Because that's the best and most honest answer I can give. Make of it what you will, but please do your best to judge it FAIRLY.