09-15-2018, 09:33 AM
This pertains quite heavily to the issues I've been facing with my ex-friend. I feel great anger because I felt such great love and that love feels so thoroughly unreciprocated. And I feel such pain. I know why the STS path is considered to be learning lessons in self love... these hurt, aggrieved souls feel themselves unworthy of the love they refuse to give. Because if they deserved love, wouldn't they have gotten it?
Why is it that somebody I loved so deeply didn't think I was worth working to make things work with? No matter what I did wrong, I ALWAYS loved this friend enough to work at trying to correct it.
And a great anger sets in and I have a hard time letting go.
It feels like I'm allowing myself to be shortchanged by forgiving without recompense. Like I'm not loving myself enough. But chances are it's the exact opposite. And I know it in my head, but my heart can't understand...
Why is it that somebody I loved so deeply didn't think I was worth working to make things work with? No matter what I did wrong, I ALWAYS loved this friend enough to work at trying to correct it.
And a great anger sets in and I have a hard time letting go.
It feels like I'm allowing myself to be shortchanged by forgiving without recompense. Like I'm not loving myself enough. But chances are it's the exact opposite. And I know it in my head, but my heart can't understand...
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