09-23-2018, 06:19 PM
So I asked my higher self to ease up on the fears I am having a time least until I feel like I have established a proper grounding and self care routine. It seems to have mostly obliged, yet it seems the fear sometimes hits again, which is fine I guess except I feel overwhelmed. I agree with GentleReckonings assessment that shadow work and grounding conflict with each other. I feel as though my higher self is trying to make me do this shadow work even when these fears make the basic grounding stuff harder for me to do or even stop me dead. I tell my higher self in prayer that I don't feel ready yet. I pray to let me ground myself more, work on my 3D lifestyle and grounding first, to send me a healer/guide/teacher who could help me in person And in 3D, etc. etc. that I don't feel ready yet. But if I'm not ready, why do they come? I find it hard to explore this shadow work AND do the daily lifestyle actions which help me to ground myself and form new habits. I have stopped using weed and subs both. What do I do? Put grounding work aside? and delve into shadow work? I honestly feel overwhelmed by this shadow work, to the point it makes grounding and living in 3D even harder! But grounding seems to be part of proper shadow work. Do I just keep focused on grounding for now, saying please let these habits at least set in first? Or do I just delve in and not ground? That doesnt sound right. But when I delve into the fear(s) I can't concentrate and feel overwhelmed! So why do then fears keep surfacing while I'm trying to just ground myself first? I promised my higher self I am not trying to escape the fears Anderson shadow work... just get my s*** in order first, so Infeel more prepared/ready. So why do they surface while I am grounding sometimes?