Q'uo: You Are In Forth Density

[EvolvingPhoenix]

It seems that the more I focus on love and loving others unconditionally, the more catalyst that asserts itself from these other people.
I've been meditating today on walking the steps and feeling the love.
And my mom lets my dog out of the front door and blames me for it.
Two days ago she kicked her computer off her table and told me to leave her room.

It's hard when I want to be loving, but am met with extreme agitation and irrational people.

I am not the nicest person either, but I don't keep it going. Or I try not to provoke an argument with such people.
I am always the one to blame.

They say surround yourself with people you want to be like, but that's impossible for me. I can't kick my mom out because she's so-called handicapped.
Or she says she can't work for some reason. She has mental problems definitely.

I can continue to send her love, but I will only make the problem worse by doing so. It will provoke her agitation even more.

The 4D energies are supposed to make negative people act irrationally I hear.

I know EXACTLY how you feel: trapped with sick, irrational,, hurt people who scapegoat you for their problems.

Walking the path of unconditional love is working as catalyst for THEM and they're fighting back, because it makes them feel bad about themselves that they (feel) they can't walk it.

Interestingly, I have noticed my parents getting better as I get better and vice versa...

There's numerous aspects to that though.

I have forgiven my parents for all of that, and I try to be understanding of their reasons for being as they are.

They are both softening.

I'm sorry it's only getting worse for you. Please understand that you are worthy of all the love and support you're not getting.

Maybe try reminding your mom that you're taking care of her not out of obligation, but because you love her. Maybe tell her that even though she gets mad at you and does hurtful things in retribution for stuff that isn't even your fault, you will always love her because she will always be worthy of your love? I dunno. I notice the more I open up to my parents and show them gratitude and tell them explicitly that I love them, and honour what's worth loving about them, regardless of the flaws they show, they get better. Maybe it's because I'm reminding them how worthy they are of self forgiveness and self love?

I dunno. I dunno what may happen with your mom and others. I dunno if you'll be able to help her or not.

Just see if you can reach her and get through to her that she's worthy of love, even when she acts like she doesn't love herself very much. See if that works. If you can have that talk with her at all.

If not, know you deserve the love you're not getting from her and she's just that hurting.

It doesn't mean you deserve her s***, it just means you don't have to take it personally, like it reflects any unworthiness on your part.

But yeah, the energy of your environment affects you. I'm sorry you're in such pain.

I love you man. And regardless of how others mistreat you, I want you to know you have a friend in me

And I'm sure everyone else here on Bring4th shares that same sentiment

Please also remember that there IS hope. Agua wrote a beautiful post about his father that really touched me and made me realize that even people who spend their whole life mistreating you can see the hurt they've caused beyond the veil.
I'm sure your mom will at least hen be able to see such things. So I hope you can forgive her.

I love you, and I hope this works out for the best for you, man. I really do.

Tell you what?

I'll do some prayers for you and your situation! I dunno how much that'll help, but I will pray regardless and hope for the best!

Maybe whenever she's yelling at you try calmly saying "I don't deserve the hurtful treatment you're giving me right now, but I won't let it stop me from loving you. I know you don't realize it, but you're worthy of that love. You just don't think you are"

See how she reacts?

I somehow doubt her response will be laughter. If it's not laughter, there is hope within this lifetime.

Remember what Ra said about the Moon card.

I hope these ideas help.

If they don't resonate, that' okay. I'm just throwing ideas out there.

I love you, and I hope your situation gets better for you and your mother, I really do.

I love you both, even though I don't know your mother and haven't known you for long. I don't know how rude you can be IRL, but I believe the loving, caring, sensitive, vulnerable, helpful person I know on these forums is the real you, and it's beautiful!

Never forget the beautiful person you really are