12-24-2010, 12:31 PM
(12-24-2010, 12:05 PM)Eno Wrote: I was looking for answers and this seemed to be like the closest thing to what I am experiencing.
things are starting to seem way too real. I feel Like i can feel the earth breathing, if that makes sense. when I'm outside my senses go crazy and I'm overcome with happiness. I find pleasure in the most simple activities and I feel like I can See Light and Dark. When I look at some people its like they are stone, stagnant uncaring not even souls upon this earth. more like destroyed versions of what themselves. walking statues. then others, more rare than not, Exude what Ive come to know as "light". Just a sense of understanding and happiness. This all happens through eye contact. It doesnt feel magic or physcic or anything like that.
It feels natural like its been there all along. music reverberates through my soul when I hear it, stronger than ever before.
I know I am a strange person. I have little belongings and have no desire for money or possessions. more and more I just follow my instinct and find myself doing strange things, such as laying in the grass in the middle of the outskirts of town.
I feel like I understand the energy of the universe and how it flows.
Its not a bad thing, I feel wonderful, but alone. I see stone people alll around me but I never lose hope, I know there is always a light in the darkness.
you may be going through an initiation.
Quote:Oh....and the cops keep trying to throw me in jail. over some fines I got llong ago for expired insurance and stuff like that. they stop me no matter what I do, I think I may end up in jail for quite some time if I let them find me. I am not a person of possessions and keep little money. I do nothing wrong, I am not without flaw, but good lord, I feel like i am being hunted by madmen. It would be nice to know there is someone else of similar mind if such people exist.
then dont let them find you. move somewhere else.