I don't know how to categorize this...

[RitaJC]

I've only in the last three months awakened.  The synchronicities and resulting information have come almost too fast for me to digest, and it's leaving me reeling.  I need to start studying the Law of One, and the only information I have gotten about it has come through David Wilcock (I've never met him) on Gaia television.  I've been reading his books as well as other books, so I'm getting bits and pieces and struggling to put it all together and hold on to the knowledge and keep timelines straight.  The last time I heard, there are 600 million (or more) of us on earth, and even our very presence here is enough to help increase the vibration of the planet.  This is something that I want to be involved in so very badly, and have since I was a boy.  I was protected, as a young boy and during my adolescence, and even saw people, dressed in white, out of the corner of my eye, quite often.  After I read "The Celestine Prophesy" a year ago, and learned how to see energy fields, I began seeing the energy around trees and people (mostly trees), almost all the time.

I feel very confident, now, that I am a wanderer, from 6th density, and I've found that drawing in energy from the source field and broadcasting it back out seems to be an easy thing for me... almost second nature.  So here's where it starts getting weird... and embarrassing to admit, for fear that it's my ego talking or that I may be losing my mind.  Recently, a friend, who is an energy practitioner, told me, rather out of the blue, that as she watched me decorating the mantel for Christmas, she said that I was surrounded by a pure white light, blue tinged at the extremities.  I looked it up, and it seems that having a white aura is very rare.  What does this mean for me?  I'm not looking for ego stroking, just some straightforward answers.

The other thing is that I've been very interested in where I come from (what planet), so I tried doing some pendulum work (Ive been able to dowse since childhood) for the first time, and after a series of questions, the answers led me to discover that I am Nommo from the Sirius star system.  I have no idea if this is even possible, and was rather taken aback, because it was not what I "desired" at all.  I wanted to be something like the Pleadians, because they are beautiful in human aesthetics, but found out that I was an ugly (by human terms) amphibian.  It was a disappointment, but "oh well"...  Could I really be a 6th density Nommo? Are the Nommo still around as a third density people?

I'm trying to be open to the possibilities, but oh, my gosh, why would I awaken at 63, and why so near to the transition to 4th?  What will become of me at the transition or at death, will I go to 4th or will I return to 6th density?  All of this is so overwhelming, but I'm keeping my head above water, so far, and I feel like I'm getting stronger day by day.  I would appreciate some answers from people who really know about these things.  I'm so anxious for the transition that I can hardly stand it!

I believe there is only one reason for fear ever: self-identification with some idea of a form. The fear is a signal that there is a believed self-identification that is far from reality/truth.

If you see that and connect back with your true being, there is nothing to be afraid of.