Is it hard to make harvest?

[Fuse]

Indigo, having read a lot of your words on this forum, I have no doubt that you are a Wanderer. Here's a couple of things to bear in mind about being a Wanderer:

First, this is our last incarnation as third density entities prior to the Harvest. We're all clearing out any karma we acquired during our incarnations of service on this planet, so don't be too hard on yourself because of your struggles. Taking on some negative karma is both natural and a requirement of the descension process that brings us back down the densities, so you needn't feel guilty about any of it, nor do you need to be concerned that it will hold you back. Further, a lot of the struggles you're experiencing probably aren't even your karma at all! Wanderers are also localized transmuters of the karmic burdens of those around us. Even people you don't know, even if you don't meet or speak with them. Still your work on their behalf proceeds.

Second, as a Wanderer, you have to remember that it's not the first time you've approached this transition. You've done it before, possibly multiple times. As such, and crucially, simply BEING here is an act of service, all the time, no matter how you occupy yourself. You are a higher density being who willingly took the dive back into lower densities in order to be of great service to those who haven't made that progress themselves yet. Your light is precious to Terra (the planetary soul), vital to the humans surrounding you, and a tremendous gift that you give every moment of every day. You don't need to be pulling off some additional amazing act of service in order to qualify for harvest. The sacrifice you are enduring by your mere presence here is more than enough.

As far as violent dreams go, you shouldn't view them as any sort of indicator of your spiritual state. Rather, remember that while you are dreaming (the ones your conscious mind can retain, at least), you are wandering Earth's astral planes, and they are a terrible mess. When you're there, the brilliance of your soul's true nature is more apparent to other souls that dwell there than it is here. This bright light naturally attracts dark entities that might attack you. No actual harm can come to you, and there's nothing wrong with you fighting back, but it can definitely be unpleasant and scary.

It used to happen to me all the time too. It doesn't any more, though, and I believe I know why. Some time ago, I realized this truth, that the darkness is violently attracted to the light, and I started doing things to cloak myself from their sight. Mostly, I just ask my higher self to grant me both protection and secrecy in going about my business here on the planet, whether in the physical or the astrals. I visualize some shielding as well, but mostly I think the intention and the stated free-will request for help is the crucial part. This has been completely effective.

In fact, just this morning I woke up from a bizarre, hyper-vivid dream that was so strange that I immediately asked my higher self about it. I was told that I had been in a lower-middle level of the astral planes. It took the form of a vast, ancient city. Everything was incredibly filthy and decrepit, a labyrinth of run-down buildings, as if people had been building on top of ruins for tens of thousands of years. It was just chock full of people. Many of them were crazed, and seemed trapped in their own experiences. But the large majority seemed like fairly normal people, just living what seemed to be fairly ordinary lives that wouldn't be out of place in a crowded city on Earth. What was interesting to me is that I was pretty much invisible to them. There were a few occasions where I encountered a rather threatening person that caused me to be concerned for my own safety in this dangerous-seeming environment. But none of them seemed to have any idea that I was there. The only ones who seemed to be able to sense my presence at all were the saner, friendlier souls (like in a very crowded, funky old restaurant that I made my way through at one point), and they merely gave me a tiny friendly nod and moved a bit to let me pass by.

I think that the timing of this experience was not a coincidence, given that you and Phoenix's comments about dream violence were here waiting for me to find this morning. So I would recommend trying to hide yourself from the darkness. My higher self once told me that if I was concerned about darker experiences in my dreams, I could specifically ask for protection from that before going to bed and it would be granted. I very rarely remember to do so now, but given that I shield myself from both harm and detection every time I meditate or communicate with my higher self, neglecting to specifically ask before I go to bed doesn't seem to matter.

My life really has been noticeably lighter and brighter since I started doing this. Hopefully it'll work for you guys as well.

But whatever else you do, don't concern yourself with whether or not you will make harvest. You've done it. You're there. It's happening, and it's happening thanks to your efforts. And who knows...maybe if you take some of these precautions, your more active efforts to be of service won't be as effectively countered by the darkness as they have been in the past.