Dealing with dopamine withdrawal

[EvolvingPhoenix]

So I've been following Agua's instructions on self healing and cut distraction out of my life to focus on self healing.

I'm doing healing codes, chanting mantras, doing the Eckhart Tolle presence exercises every day, and now I'm starting to include walking meditations as well into my daily routine.

But this stuff is pretty boring; it doesn't produce much dopamine.

So I've been going crazy from dopamine withdrawal over the past week, especially yesterday.

And I'm wondering what I can do to produce dopamine that doesn't interfere with my spiritual healing practices.

I'm thinking maybe practice an instrument or something and try to socialize as much as possible.

Still, it feels like I'm going nuts with boredom. If anybody has any tips for how to deal with the dopamine withdrawal, I'd love to hear your advice.

Because I feel like I'm going nuts, and sometimes I do stuff that isn't productive or healthy, just to get that dopamine because of dopamine withdrawal.

I spent all day yesterday watching Lost in Vegas Youtube Reaction videos because I was bored and I wanted some of the fun they were having vicariously through watching the videos.

Thing is, I wanna do something healthy for me, not just keep myself mindlessly distracted with Youtube videos and stuff like that.

If anybody has any tips for how to deal with this dopamine withdrawal in a healthy way, I'm all ears!

I think this all depends on what you deem as productively spending time. for some it can mean simply ''being''.
To another person it may mean making progress towards a distant goal. but still we're always also searching for instant satisfaction.
But a sense of duty is needed at times.. doing the same things every day without being satisfied but knowing we're making progress towards a distant goal that will be a lot more satisfactory in the long run..

Maybe you can go on a trip. specially if nature sucks where you live.  
Also meditative walks don't have to be boring.. I get the feeling you have a need for unleashing your creativity. maybe use those walks for that to make them a lot more fun and engaging.

Naw I can't afford to go on a trip.

Yeah, I did a meditative walk for about an hour today, at Agua's instruction. IT wasn't boring. Although I got distracted a lot.

As for needing to unleash my creativity, you might be right about that. I dunno.

Agua says boredom is a defense mechanism of the ego.

Maybe that's my problem is my mind is putting up every bit of resistance to becoming present.

Trying to push through it is frankly quite exhausting, but Agua pointed out he spends more time and energy trying to keep me motivated and helping me out and answering my repetitive questions and stuff than I do doing these healing exercises.

So I should probably just stop complaining and go full throttle with the healing exercises, as much as it may be boring to do and as much resistance as I naturally have to doing it. It's the only way forward for me. I've already managed to get myself out of acute psychosis with Agua's help, so maybe I can heal myself with that same help. But it seems like I'm wearing his patience thin.

Gotta be more independent.