Love is on the other side of Anger

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Exemplar!

Feel that shame out. Follow it down, and use that to the best of your ability to see more of yourself that is blocked up.

Oh God! The shame and humiliation I have felt in past times of this life! After digging deep with that shame and seeing all that you can, almost as using that shame as an echo locator for other blockages that substrait from that shame. You nees to dig even deeper and find/see/realize how wonderful and perfectly perfect you are. God is a master craftsman son. Thise "flaws" are there on purpose and for a reason.

Diggggg deeeeeep, and drink even deeper.

I can feel your apathy and selfloathing. I know all about that to. What I found after many many long years of these type of feelings. I began to understand that I was crying out for help, and angry I wasnt receiving exactly what I wanted. There is no one coming to save you. You are the only one. Life is already perfect when you can realize this deeply.

I also understand hiw it feels to seem to lose out on the potential of something great. In Infinity there are boundless potentials, literally endless. Dont sit for to long letting all these other wonderful potentials go bye, because of the missed oppurtunity.

Also I do not think you and this friend are done forever. I personally believe this was a major gateway evemt for you and well planned out. Look how far youve come since then!!!!

I'm digging deep, and doing my best to heal. It's a lengthy process.


Please don't say my friend and I are done forever. For life maybe, but forever? After all, all roads lead to back to live. All roads lead to one. I remind myself of that day by day. Maybe when this life is over, in the afterlife, this friend and I can hug it out and I can say "I'm sorry" and she'll accept my apology. I'm crying now. Im so sorry for everything. I wish it wasn't too late to say that to her.