01-24-2019, 10:23 AM
(01-23-2019, 08:05 PM)MangusKhan Wrote: I have put myself into a kind of solitary confinement at the moment, with the whole living in a tent in a forest on the beach thing I'm doing. Honestly I'm pretty depressed like you, but I know why. It's because I simply cannot let go of hatred. So I will remain alone in my forest until a time comes when I can see other people, no matter who they are, with love. I remember what it feels like, to feel nothing but unconditional love for everyone. So at least I have the memory to guide me through the many long days and nights of hate and sorrow. What is it that you are refusing to let go of and move past?
Also, do you exercise, Pheonix? Real exercise that makes you pant and sweat and leaves your muscles sore. It's probably the joy of my day when I wake up and go swimming in the ocean, then come back to the forest and do body weight exercises. This morning it was so grey, and no one was on the beach but me for a while. All these jellyfish and goose barnacle-covered coconuts had been beached by the wind overnight, and everything seemed wonderfully desolate.
No, I've got no motivation to exercise. Sounds pretty cool what you're doing though. If it works for you, I say that's great! As for what I'm trying to move past, probably the friendship breakup. I'm still not over it, although I'm thinkibg about it less and false hope for reconciliation (wishful thinking) no longer plagues me.