I'm so depressed

[smiLie]

All feelings are essentially energy, there is infinite energy available to all in every moment, and every emotion is a form or distortion of love, thus love is in all emotion. Try and find love in your experience, whatever it may be, nurture the child that is hurt within you.

What blossom said, with a twist.

Love is in all emotions.

You experience anger and feeling lost and confused.

Why are you angered? At yourself or at other people? Could you do better when you made choices you've made? Not very likely, you know NOW that you could , but what about THEN?

You are angry because you take your current situation too seriously. Let it go. It's a game. There's no failure , if you fail you'll get to replay, that's all. What is happening to you is a catalyst, you need to understand what is it that the world is trying to tell you  , and not fight it.
Accept it and change yourself. That's why you are here.

It doesn't matter that you think you are 20 years late. Majority will never wake up, you did. Embrace it. Love it.
Love every minute of the challenge that the world is throwing at you , as these are catalysts for your change. It is sent in Love and with Love, to teach you, with purpose for you to learn and get better.

And if you are angry and act as a child, you do not understand what the world is trying to tell you.

Take anything that's coming as catalyst and as a teacher, not as enemy. Teach yourself to accept it and bend yourself around most obstacles. Then you will slowly learn to love every minute of it.

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I am still at the very beginning of this path myself, often not very humble.