u seem like u found ur answer, that ur afraid to deal with ur mind/thoughts. i got a great video for u that might help with dealing with ur thoughts 
i dont consider myself as having an addiction i think saying that and identifying with it can make it a self-fulfilling thing. i do tend to spend too much time online. i think its a product of feeling like i cant relate to the people in my real life and i relate more to the people i watch and can more freely express myself when im anonymous online and just being alone lets me feel comfortable letting my mind be more of who i am. the solution for me is to work towards a way of making money so that i naturally have more alone time.
i dont consider myself as having an addiction i think saying that and identifying with it can make it a self-fulfilling thing. i do tend to spend too much time online. i think its a product of feeling like i cant relate to the people in my real life and i relate more to the people i watch and can more freely express myself when im anonymous online and just being alone lets me feel comfortable letting my mind be more of who i am. the solution for me is to work towards a way of making money so that i naturally have more alone time.