Sharing feelings

[Minyatur]

I don't really have a great need to share my feelings, but I also don't shy away from it when I do. A lot of things I just rather live on my own because I see myself as owning my feelings, like if I am sad I can find beauty in it and can see that there is a part of myself that clings to the state. At other times, I am more in a process of release and find it helpful to share to accelerate the process of balancing. I've rarely been hung up for long on things and for when it was the case it goes back to clinging to the state.

I think my coming short as a listener is that as I internalize another's energy I tend toward balancing it as my own, which may come to be seen as a denial of the other when most people cling to their emotional state. So I tend to do what I do with myself and work the full circle of relativising the thing, internalizing all sides of a story in understanding the common nature reflected in all parties. I try to turn what is unacceptance into that which is understandable and acceptable. Like I had a friend that was cheated upon and talking to me about it made me speak more of how he was disconnected from what she feels and what needs she had to have got to that, how the parts of him that are hurt and angry are actually the part of him that does not love her and instead made use of her to fill his own needs. Let's say I am not the best person to reinforce feelings of victimhood, because I don't distill my own self as such and so I rarely, like I said, remain hung on things. There is a big lesson about that all energies need to move through you, rather than remain stuck.

There are been a few cases where I have been hurt by not being received openly in sharing my feelings, seeing them not matter to another, but where I am at now it is hard to ignore the symbolic and mirror-like nature of events, just as my own needs to have been received that way at those times. You can only blame someone for not being open to what you feel through not being open to what they feel. Let's say you are deep in sorrow, maybe your vibe is heavy in a way that the other person does not have the ability to be open to it with empathy and your desire of it to be so kinda just wishes to pull them down with you, which is not empathic to them either. Being good at being transparent with others implies to have been destroyed in your sense of self and ego, it is not something to expect of everyone nor to want to impose on them.

Nowadays I open to the people it resonates with and naturally don't with those it doesn't. Like I said, there is always a symbolic notion to how things happen. When I don't seem to be what people want to hear, I like to think their unconscious still seek what I have to offer and that it might be a seed for growth. Like how all responses we dislike may also act as such.