What does it really take to open to Intelligent Infinity?

[AnthroHeart]

Here's one thought, IGW.  If you had a free one year pass on American Airlines, but had no desire to travel, then it wouldn't do you much good.  If you had access to Intelligent Infinity, but had no deep desire to go anywhere with it, as it were, then what's the point in asking the question?  Simply desiring a cool exit out of this incarnation is okay, but desire to serve is one of the key elements, as I seem to recall from the Ra Material.  And then there's simple "I'd kinda like to" desire as well as a desire which vibrates you whole being.  There's a transparency to Divinity associated with the latter, I would aver.  It may be useful to concentrate on giving of yourself rather than acquiring for yourself.  Just a thought.

Thank you peregrine. It's excellent points you bring up. I'll try to explain.

I do give at every opportunity. I just don't go out of my way to give extra.
I serve my mom and Cyan who is staying here. As I will mention, I serve humanity through energy work.
Well, the "cool exit" would be like 40-50 years from now. Not something I'm looking for right away.

I do want to be like a spiritual master, but I don't want to gain 1000's of followers. It just doesn't seem right
to have people following you. The age of the guru is over. Plus I'm not the best teacher of philosophical secrets.
That doesn't mean I don't teach. I perhaps speak too much on my experiences.
Yes, I do demonstrate love in what I do. And that may be enough. But isn't it good to strive for more?

I would love to travel the Universe with unfettered tread. I do have interest in other alien cultures. I just don't
travel the astral planes because fear has held me back. Plus it's a lot of work for such little reward (meaning what I have accomplished so far).
I would desire strongly to meet Ra for instance, if that were even possible. They are in our inner planes, so maybe.

Why should we desire to better ourselves? Is it wrong to want to be better? Or must we deny ourselves any gain?
I think just conquering my fear would go a long way to helping humanity (the collective). And what timeline I'm on.
I do energy work often, sending healing. I do a lot of work from behind the scenes. I think with II I could do more.

I do realize that II is always flowing through me. It keeps me alive, and all of us.

But can't you access the gateway and still stay here in 3D to help others?

And would I have to lose a lot of weight and be thin in order for my body to handle II?