Spiritual Upheaval and Mundane No More

[kristina]

Well I have my sufferings too and hard experiences where I felt alone nothing worked for me and that broke me twice. I was at a point where negative entities would psychic attack me in a way where my senses would perceive them one of those experiences were that I was about to sleep and all of the sudden I saw someone running at me to attack me in my room another exp: I heard birds hitting the windows of my room, shadows and noises in the house after these experiences I was not afraid but angry wanting to fight not knowing what was going on. I knew something was wrong so I started investigating after a while I started having good dreams with my brothers and sisters of the confederation and Jesus.then after some years of purifying myself I opened the heart energy point or chakra I felt the love of the Creator bathing me the hands of my guardians embraced my whole body that's when I understood that I'm loved unconditionally I heard the name of one my guardians and my teacher she whispered me her name my heart melt in a second. I learned to trust the Creator to be patient because if it was not for those negative experiences I would not seek the truth I would've been under the veil in ignorance of the knowledge of the Infinite self that manifest through us. Love and light my sister.

May I ask when most of these experiences occured? At what time of day? I think that may be relevant to what we experience when we are going through initiation.
And everything is fine now?

Most of those experiences happened between 5 or 6 years ago when I was 24-25 I'm 30 now and completely fine. The experiences happened to me at night. It is complicated why these things were happenings to me and I will explain the reason perhaps that can help you. In those days I found out about the Law of One( in some mysterious way which i don't recall) working and going to college. I didn't have too much to time to spend in my spiritual life so things were not good. After I decided to rest from college a little bit and focus on my spiritual life(no girlfriend no parties no nothing only solitude) and this is were negative entities in order to keep me away from the truth in that way they can manipulate, control and feed from me started attacking this of course broke me not once but twice isolation is very difficult even when you're with family you feel alone. This is how they deal they attack you when you're vulnerable when you feel alone, when you're depressed or have any blockage in your three first energy centers but at the same time which I finally understood thanks to brother Jesus the Christ which somehow told me turn to the other cheek. I wholeheartedly thanked and forgave these negative entities because they were telling me due to their psychic attacks that the Law of One is real their attacks were to create fear and keep me away from the LOO. while they were attacking me at night every time I was meditating I was thanking them with unconditional love my blockage resided in the yellow energy center I was separating them from me and that was negative after a while of forgiving and trying to love unconditionally my heart energy center opened. After the energy of the heart opens it is different your whole life changes that was 4 years ago. currently I've been working in my indigo energy center and feeling pretty good about it with power love and wisdom. Never stop meditating no matter what I want you to know that you have no idea how beautiful you are you are perfect do not judge yourself never only forgive. you have to learn to forgive and to love yourself in that way you can forgive and love others. Ask the Creator for help always The Creator is closer to you than your own breath. The Creator will take the form of whatever you want him to take Male, Female, a light you name it just talk to the Creator your heart out. Go at night and see the stars you may see your brothers and sisters of the Confederation.

Wow! That is a very inspiring story. And this is what Carla spoke about in her Wanderer's handbook regarding initiation. I've always been interested whether other seekers experienced these attacks in the form of horrible nightmares, spectors, frightening visions and thoughts. Generally speaking between 3-5 am, was that your experience?. It seems as if you most certainly have. It is a part of the initiation. And just as you said, it doesn't linger. And you gave some very good advice to others as they journey through this process. I have only been frightened during one meditation but suffered from horrible nightmares for years and they suddenly came to an end when love was applied. Thanks for sharing your story.