Dream interpretation: 3 wasps

[JJCarsonian]

Kristina

I think you are exactly right. I've actually realized all this about myself. As much wisdom and knowledge i've gain over the years (I love studying the Ra material and listening to educational info) I find that I haven't been the best at implementing what I know i should do. Partly because i've been waiting to change my habits for so long. A couple months ago i've quit my job so i can focus more on myself. I do find it hard to meditate, because i havent been able to get into deep meditation, partially because i feel like my brain is a little messed up from all the crap i've put in my body. I've also realized that i've been looking to crystals and such to do the work, but Ra would say that these are just metaphysical training wheels lol.

Right now, i'm just trying to figure out my next steps so i'm looking for clues in such. At the end, I know that i need to love and forgive myself. I feel like i'm not as hard on myself as i once was, but not sure if I fully love myself. If you know some simple things i can do to help, i'd appreciatei t.

First of all, thank you JJ for being sober because if one is sick, we are all sick. Using drugs as a numbing agent is very, very common and you need to forgive yourself for using. That's your first step in opening your heart....open it first to yourself. This is the first and most important step for any of us. We need to love ourselves first, forgive ourselves first, be open and honest with ourselves first. This will probably take up most of your life as I have found that upon review of my life, I have done much to forgive. lol. I have been a bad girl. So, I am almost positive it will take the rest of of my life learning to forgive, love and accept me in the past and the present moment. Then I can apply that love, acceptance and forgiveness to others. It's not easy. I have to look at each of the things I have done and forgive each part. For those of us who hide from emotion and resort to logic first it is pretty difficult to get in touch with that very first thing you did in which you hold yourself in contempt for and say, "I forgive you and love you anyway". This is the first leap. It's gets easier as you go along but always look to the Creator in thanksgiving for your ability to even see what it is you feel you were in error. That error has brought you here, to a place of forgiveness. Now you can make a choice, a healthy choice. Also JJ you will no longer look at things as errors but as a way that your soul has come to learn. Be very loving and patient as this process will be trying at times.
Quote:
Let us for a moment consider thought. What is it, my friends, to take thought? Took you then thought today? What thoughts did you think today? What thoughts were part of the original thought today? In how many of your thoughts did the creation abide? Was love contained? And was service freely given? You are not part of a material universe. You are part of a thought. You are dancing in a ballroom in which there is no material. You are dancing thoughts. You move your body, your mind, and your spirit in somewhat eccentric patterns for you have not completely grasped the concept that you are part of the original thought. -Ra (1.0)


To begin to master the concept of mental discipline it is necessary to examine the self. The polarity of your dimension must be internalized. Where you find patience within your mind you must consciously find the corresponding impatience and vice versa. Each thought that a being has, has in its turn an antithesis. The disciplines of the mind involve, first of all, identifying both those things of which you approve and those things of which you disapprove within yourself, and then balancing each and every positive and negative charge with its equal. The mind contains all things. Therefore, you must discover this completeness within yourself. -Ra

In the channelings of Ra it is discussed how thoughts becoming "things"....the example Ra uses is cancer. Cancer that is a result from unresolved anger. This is more about your Neuropathy. It is possible that your condition is a result of several things, your wanting to numb out the pain of emotion and the drug use. As a result, it is possible to have triggered this condition into activation.
JJ I want you to think of your Will. One of the most powerful things we have in our pockets is will. We can direct it, send it, and use it. This very artifact makes all unstoppable in their missions. It's the very essence of your sobriety. So, use your will in your first mission of love to the self and then to the other self. Don't let your spiritual journey worry you as nothing pleases the Creator more than you living your life upon the Earth looking through your lense, from your perspective.


Ra: I am Ra. We have given information concerning the proper nurturing of this channel. We, therefore, repeat ourselves only in two ways in general. Firstly, we suggest that rather than being, shall we say, brave and ignoring a physical complex weakness distortion, it is good to share this distortion with the group and thus perhaps, shall we say, remove one opportunity for contact which is very wearying to the instrument, in order that another opportunity might come about in which the instrument is properly supported.

Secondly, the work begun in harmony may continue. Harmony, thanksgiving, and praise of opportunities and of the Creator: these are your protection. These are our suggestions. We cannot be specific for your free will is of the essence in this contact. As we said, we only speak to this subject because of our grasp of your orientation towards long-term maintenance of this contact. This is acceptable to us.
Hopefully these quotes from those of Ra have brought some peace of mind....