Greatful

[Ankh]

Hello brother!

Thank you for sharing.

Note that 7 is the age of the first hard Saturn aspect

What's that?

I never really properly developed yellow-ray socially, always being a sort of outcast amongst my friends.

I always seem to have friends, but I am not genuine in the realtionships, which is pretty obvious due the orange ray issues. I am not comfortable with people and feel always poor self-esteem in the groups. But since I am good in words and can "read" most of them I know what to say and not say, but as I said it is not geniune.

I have begun doing two things that seem to be working in healing it:

1. Focus on the heart center, both in meditation and not. Previously I focused on third eye, which allows higher spiritual states, but the third eye cannot re-balanced the heart, furthermore, green ray seems to be the ray which can most easily and readily heal the lower chakra problems.

I just started doing that. It is however sometimes a bit frustrating. It is a great pressure and a lot of visions which are the signs of big blockage. No surprise there though.

2. Guard, and change your thought process. Any time you see yourself being judgmental, replace it with love.

A good example of this is commercials. Due to the obvious fact that commercials try to manipulate you, there is a tendency to become cynical about the happy people in them. I have felt it's helpful to simply try to identify them and feel their joy, it's easy enough to ignore the commercial message if you need to.

Don't watch the TV but I see your point, brother! I guess that is what I need to do now, even if "love" often doesn't come naturally from my heart. It feels like I force myself to "feel" and that is fake. But hey, I guess it's no more fake than the lie I've been living til now.