09-10-2019, 02:23 PM
EP have you considered the anger you feel is at yourself not her.
Seems you admit she is quite good and you mistreated her. At some point we do have to put up boundaries when someone constantly impacts our mental health. Doing so becomes an unfortunate and painful necessity.
Might be able to work through the anger if you focus on the correct person you feel it for then work to forgive yourself. That’s what’s most important anyway. Self forgiveness. When you understand and forgive yourself, forgiving others is much easier. Then you are truely free.
Unforgiving also closes the heart which might explain this sinkhole experience you are having.
Hope you feel better soon.
Seems you admit she is quite good and you mistreated her. At some point we do have to put up boundaries when someone constantly impacts our mental health. Doing so becomes an unfortunate and painful necessity.
Might be able to work through the anger if you focus on the correct person you feel it for then work to forgive yourself. That’s what’s most important anyway. Self forgiveness. When you understand and forgive yourself, forgiving others is much easier. Then you are truely free.
Unforgiving also closes the heart which might explain this sinkhole experience you are having.
Hope you feel better soon.