Hi Caitlyn I am going to have to reply to you later when I am back at a computer but I wanted to welcome you. Also wanted to assure you no part of the creator is without light so no matter how dark you think you are it’s just a matter of growth and self awareness until you can excavate to the light within.
If you look through the forum history you will notice we have had many come here with similar delusions of grandeur my guidance has always insisted against pride or anything that inflated ego as it generally is a step in elevating onceself above others and that as you’ve seen is a very slippery slope. Unity means oneness so there can be no betters or worse just illusion.
I look forward to learning from you about NPD because it looking in from my eyes/heart reading your words seems like wounded light. By that I mean a being with the same light we all carry just deeply traumatized enough it cannot see it’s own light, can’t make it shine without recognizing itself, nor can it really see the light of others.
We all deal with our trauma and separation into ego in different ways. Yours sounds like a trickier coping mechanism to break free from but I know you can do it. You are here. You are being honest.
Self awareness from such deep delusions is hard and look at you doing it.
Ok on my phone. I will be back, love to you. Keep doing what you are doing.
Ps by asking for help and revealing all this it is much like a prayer and confession.
Those still stuck in darkness do not pray and confess, you are coming home. One step at a time.
If you look through the forum history you will notice we have had many come here with similar delusions of grandeur my guidance has always insisted against pride or anything that inflated ego as it generally is a step in elevating onceself above others and that as you’ve seen is a very slippery slope. Unity means oneness so there can be no betters or worse just illusion.
I look forward to learning from you about NPD because it looking in from my eyes/heart reading your words seems like wounded light. By that I mean a being with the same light we all carry just deeply traumatized enough it cannot see it’s own light, can’t make it shine without recognizing itself, nor can it really see the light of others.
We all deal with our trauma and separation into ego in different ways. Yours sounds like a trickier coping mechanism to break free from but I know you can do it. You are here. You are being honest.
Self awareness from such deep delusions is hard and look at you doing it.
Ok on my phone. I will be back, love to you. Keep doing what you are doing.
Ps by asking for help and revealing all this it is much like a prayer and confession.
Those still stuck in darkness do not pray and confess, you are coming home. One step at a time.
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