05-07-2009, 10:46 PM
I just smiled and smiled as I read your entry here. Very nice.
I am struck by just how much you trust what you know, and those impulses within you. I have similar impulses, but I learned early to question them, to distrust them. Where/when I grew up, I learned that I had better try to fit in, even though it was obvious to me and everyone else that I never would.
I now wonder if fitting in is possibly a part of my mission...that I have to be seen as inhabiting some recognizable and "acceptable" space, so that the people I need to talk to will give at least a bit of attention. No solid answers to that one, yet. But I do envy how easy you are in your life and your world.
Thank you for sharing your experience. And stop apologizing for your writing. It reflects you perfectly.
I am struck by just how much you trust what you know, and those impulses within you. I have similar impulses, but I learned early to question them, to distrust them. Where/when I grew up, I learned that I had better try to fit in, even though it was obvious to me and everyone else that I never would.
I now wonder if fitting in is possibly a part of my mission...that I have to be seen as inhabiting some recognizable and "acceptable" space, so that the people I need to talk to will give at least a bit of attention. No solid answers to that one, yet. But I do envy how easy you are in your life and your world.
Thank you for sharing your experience. And stop apologizing for your writing. It reflects you perfectly.