Can an [evil] being experience being alone in the darkness?

[Celestial]

Do you purposefully close your heart?

If your heart isn't closed, then I don't see you ending up in a dark room alone.

Here’s a link to an image I drew outlining where the physical constriction and pain is: https://i.imgur.com/VWns04J.jpg

I understand this is just my interpretation of it. I have seen doctors however they claim there is nothing wrong. What I have depicted is very much felt physically, it is very intense. It is up to you what you take from it in terms of my concerns.

I don’t think my heart is fully closed. I still cry and I wouldn’t be posting here if I was okay with the path I feel I am going down. It’s true I harbour a lot of anger and despair, I have absorbed so much pain from the mental beatings and tragedy I have endured in this life. My mum died, dad abused me, sister died. It’s very complex in the way I think about it but I think that may come from resisting pain. I could say a lot about it. I do fear that my heart is closing and will close by the end of my life, it does strike me as a possibility.