Unity vs Separation

[Kaaron]

Why do we try to unite, a creator who chose separation?

The only way I can wrap my head around this idea of a "creator" wanting to experience itself (and to me it is only an idea) is to remove any "human" characteristics from the equation. The universe is not some big father god who loves us, rather it is a bunch of strings with awareness constituting infinite possibilities; and forces such as inertia work within the system. Or any number of other theories. But not the simplified "religious" kind of take on it, because once you go down that path, you may as well be reading the Christian bible which makes no sense at all and doesn't promote understanding. And yes, I have heard that this is not the density of understanding, but I don't care about that "rule" and neither will I stop trying to understand.
this seems counterproductive. If there is nothing empathetic about the creator...if it is indifferent...it's a dumb game.
I don't feel that it doesn't care...I feel that it only cares about it's own perspective being enriched. We may be part of that...but only if we find a path to understanding.
If we don't...which under the law of free will, is entirely possible...we are in a state of disconnection.
I feel like there are pockets of lower vibration within our logos.
Free will dictates one may stay in this state of vibration subjectively, forever.
I'd say there are parts of the Christian Bible which speak of understanding and unity. There is both positive and negative ideology.
It documents the Orion crusaders usurping the worship of Yahweh. Using the Israelites as their own personal army...while telling Nimrod nothing is more Godly, than himself.
The origin of the holy war.
The jesus s*** is more STO.

I feel like the reason things feel hard...is we are trying to do something that is innately counterproductive.
If the logos wanted this place to exist to know itself better...aren't we wasting the experience by trying to unite?
Why not be like f*** EVERYONE and be separate.

Because it doesn't matter "what the logos wants." What matters is what you want. You are who you are; you become who you want to be. And you don't do it because there is a rule, or someone(thing) tells you to. Like in the movie "The Matrix" there are certain parameters you have to work within; but you decide, you create, you evolve, and though it may have tendencies this is not a closed system. At least that is what I currently think.
I disagree...I feel like what I want, is the illusion.
It is the Wishing to remain separate, that creates this illusion. Choice...creates illusion.
It takes the place of the neutral third eye. This is the very foundation of separation. Feeling like what I see or decide even matters.

Perhaps this feeling of insanity i get watching the separation, is a result of me being a moron, going against what the logos set in motion.
The sooner we all let go n stop giving a s***...the sooner the creator can get to the event horizon n we can be absorbed back into the void.
Perhaps the nazi's were vilified.
I feel like destruction and rebirth, is the path to reconciliation.
The experiment feels out of hand.

I am not a follower nor do I "obey." So, screw any entity who tries to tell me I have to do this or that. Maybe I ultimately will have no choice in the matter of existence or evolution, but it is my nature to forge my own path. By this I don't mean that I am just a contrarian. I endeavor not to resist what is while staying fluid and open to possibilities. But "what is" is not something in a book or channeling (which I may resonate with or not); "what is" is something I encounter.

So to me, you are not a moron—you are a thinking person.
this is my modality too.
I still feel like our logos is about the self though.
The infinite creator may have other parts or logai that are more positive...but this one ain't. Perhaps this is a female logos...as has been put forth by various people.
Like logai are chakras in the body of the one infinite creator.
Ours draws toward the center...this is negative.