What do you do for a living? /how do I achieve work/life-balance?

[Kaaron]

I'm on a benefit for depression n anxiety.
Just found out the sounds in my ears and dizzy spells, I've had all my life, is tinnitus lol. Doctors are awesome. I self diagnosed my whole life cos they obviously don't know s*** lol.
Anyway...yeah...pushing knives into my arm at 8 and first shrink at 11 after I started smashing my head into walls.
Prozak at 16, cetelipram at 24, venlafaxine at 30.
Pill free since 2012 n just trying to balance the reptilians that hound me due to soul contracts etc.
I net crystals and meditate.
It helps me not completely lose it n want to kill everyone...so that's pretty awesome; not killing you all.
I used to feel like I wasn't a real man, for not having a job.
Then i realized i had a function of replacing the system and money...so I look at it as a necessity now. Staying separate from the majik money system.
I spent time in laboring and corporate work.
It felt wrong and I would have to take days off when I'd get depressed for what I feel, was a reaction within to not being where I was supposed to be, or not living up to my potential.
I've done volunteer work...to try to do something for others. I'm not lazy...just using all my time, working to survive...depresses the f*** outta me. I'm lucky I live in NZ and we have such a good social security system. I get 265 a week. Average rent for one person flat is about 200. So I can eat but it's pretty tight.
That's why I side hussle.
Now I've got my daughter and have a medical condition that comes under an invalid category, I should be able to get around 5-600.
My partner is on a non working Visa though...so I've been trying to support us both for 6 months...on 265 a week.
Lucky for us, my mother is awesome and has been letting us stay with her.
I try to work. I was a Barber, studio manager/producer, install coordinator etc.
I end up in intense battles with those who try to impose their agendas on me. There are those who unknowingly get triggered by being around me.
I bring out the shadows in others...most times as a result of standing next to them.
It's become too intense to be around others in my state of flux.
I'm over having to be lessons for people, who don't want to look at their own s***. So I keep to myself n don't put myself in those situations.
That's why crystal netting is the only thing I do, for now.
I'm in the process of helping allocate money for a hemp industry for my family though.
That's where I feel my future is.

Just wanted to put this out there, for others going through similar things.