My LBL Regression, with Law of One related material

[Sacred Fool]

 
Yes, it's a long read, but worth the time required, I thought.

I'm glad you could share this with your mrs., especially given the "colorful" role she played in the experience.

It struck me that your council members are transparently elements of your own larger self which your personality self has fragmented in order to, if you will, make the meal digestible.  The spiraling, torquing direction of it all seems clearly to bend towards integration of the various elements represented by said council members.  The wisdom you seek to integrate, in other words, appears to be articulated as the wisdom of safety/security, the wisdom of beneficent offering of light, the wisdom of getting the job done, the wisdom gained by the detached observer and the other one I can't recall.  In your day-to-day mundane choices, you may see these values being traded off in various ways.  You may pick up refined lessons along these lines along your path.

I wish you all the best in your sojourn through the land of less than perfectly clear choices.