01-20-2011, 10:29 PM
(01-20-2011, 04:07 AM)peregrine Wrote: Even though that sounds like cheating, I believe you are correct. In that sense it's a small step from fear to joy, from longing to fulfillment?
A very small step from fear to joy, but it requires going straight through the very core of the fear. There's no going around it. That's where the circular theory wouldn't work too well.
(01-20-2011, 04:07 AM)peregrine Wrote: Or, maybe I'm just confused and you're running spirals around me?
Very perceptive. I'll be more straight-forward. You mentioned the "recognition of having played the role of a severe persecutor of some who practiced a profound, simple devotional faith (in by-gone lifetimes)." I have a memory of getting strangled by people carrying Christian crosses. I'm not suggesting a direct connection, even though your energy 'signature' seems vaguely familiar. I'm acting on an impulse, not likely that there's any need for me to speak, but just in case: Peace. Shalom. мир. And, your story interests me.
(01-20-2011, 04:07 AM)peregrine Wrote: I enjoyed your description above. Having often played the role of the one in need of discharge, alas, I can report that enduring feelings of deep fulfillment are no more likely to be attained from following that particular path.
I had never thought of myself as looking for enduring fulfillment, but of course I'd be a total hypocrite if I said I wasn't. I just hadn't thought of it that way. But what is enduring fulfillment? Inner peace? Knowing that I Am Love? A clear connection with the laughter of the universe? A mission well performed? I kind of feel like I'm in a stage of picking up the pieces, and that this whole cycle is nearing a peak of fulfillment of sorts. Time to move on, but first... gotta try to get some more of those dang aching vertebrae in better alignment.
(01-20-2011, 04:07 AM)peregrine Wrote: My feeling is that refinement of emotion is the key there, along with refinement of identity: "where is the beauty I crave truly located?"
But the beauty is everywhere? Everywhere and nowhere. It's the most elusive thing until you see it, but then it's in every cloud, in every ray of sunshine. It can be found it in a single sprouting seed, even at times when the larger picture, or the images inside, might be too much to handle. Yes, I also think refinement and awareness of emotion is the key.
(01-20-2011, 04:07 AM)peregrine Wrote: Glad that was positive. Unlike you & Shemaya I felt no spinal association. But, like her, I did note a strong sense of how the two--Fire & Love--were very distinct and did not mix together. Maybe that's a good thing? I had some interesting thought about that then...which evades me now. Maybe it will return later, somewhere along the spiral pathway?
Let us know if it does. But yes, to make the fire and love distinct I need to pick a different fire - there's a whole range to choose from. What I felt was more of a touch of "fire of life." Empowering and affirming. Re-reading the transcript I see that the suggested exercise is very similar to something I have done, but not with fire. Those times I was at first unable to hold the joy/love and the essence of whatever difficult emotion I was dealing with in my mind at the same time. I'd kind of go ping-pong joy-despair-joy-despair, until I was able to feel both at the same time - a hugely expansive experience.
Will see what kind of fire I can conjure up. Yep, I see what's next.