Hypnotic Regression

[AnthroHeart]

I don't know. Being drawn to the Law of One would say I'm an old soul.
But being immature in life, and threatening to  get fired like 3 times at my last job
and not being able to handle pressure would say that I'm a young soul.

I'm 42 and my mom says I act like a child.

She does good things like fixing food and stuff.

But her health isn't the best so I guess I can understand why she's angry so much.

I know I will have to repeat lessons I didn't learn.

I am not assuming there is even a harvest, so I'm trying to live like I may have to reincarnate
many more times before I evolve enough to not need to any longer.

I think a spiritually mature person won't get too excited or too upset at anything that happens.

Sometimes I feel like we don't really have free will because it's the Tao that is the doer.

There is a saying that everything is predestined. Yet there is also free will to an extent.

I can only try my best and my mom is trying her best. I need to realize more that she is Creator too.

I wish I didn't get mad like I do, even though it's only a couple of seconds when I do.