Hypnotic Regression

[AnthroHeart]

Thank you flo, and congrats on crossing 1000 posts.

I am doing alright I guess. I can only do my best.

I've given a lot of valuable stuff away for free, and even my book is for free on Academia.

When it didn't sell well, I just offered it for free, though it's still for sale.

Yes, sometimes I try too hard to do good.

But sometimes I do wrong/borderline stuff for the greater good.

They say no good deed goes unpunished. So I don't know how it will go.

I've been very lucky in life. Though I've hurt people when I was a teen, I'm like not in jail or anything now.
I'm very fortunate. And I didn't physically hurt or kill anyone. I've never hit another person.

Though I did get close once to punching my mom because she berated me and turned off the tv when I was watching it.

Meditation has helped me feel clear inside. I don't have constant burning anxiety like I used to.

But things still get to me.

I wish I could be more spiritual and live like a spiritual master who has put the world behind them.

But taking care of my mom I can't just go join a monestary.

I energetically help people remotely that I don't know like almost every day.
I can shift energy to be higher vibration and more positive. That's the service I do.

I don't know what it does exactly, but I intend for it to do good. And it is sometimes hard work.

I'm not one for serving at the soup kitchen. But I do shift energy for the highest good,
often working with my spirit guide and sometimes Ra.

Though I may be full of myself for thinking that Ra actually does anything through me.

I sometimes worry that by me calling on them it forces them to have to work through me.

I sometimes worry that I'm violating Ra's free will.