Seeking Advice

[DyerHarris]

I've been diagnosed with a "mental illness" and was prescribed a medication called zyprexa, I was on it for a while and then was able to get off of it. a couple weeks ago i made a "mistake" by having a little too much alcohol during the weekend of my sisters wedding which really up the stakes of my experiences. Because of this my parents have asked that i take the medication some more. As i get back on the medication i notice that my instrument as Ra would would say is becoming quite dull. I'm trying to play along for everyone elses sake at the expense of my own progression. While on this medication however, i feel like im operating on the bare minimum human spiritual consciousness. Everyone around says that i've been very "hyper" lately and that my emotions would go from one extreme to the other and i wouldnt even realize it. But the thing is i do realize it and thats why i go from one extreme to the other because i have realized that emotions are a tool of expression much like a hand is a tool to be used. I feel the medication would serve as a good use incase of an emergency. I wouldn't take a tylenol every night to prevent headaches from happening. I'd just take one when i feel one is close by. Any suggestions?