There's some nuance here that's difficult to describe. I'll try to clear up some misconceptions.
This isn't a 'people hurt me, so I'm going to hurt other people indiscriminately' situation.
I'm giving myself freedom to express my shadow side, which all entities have, without seeing it as something 'wrong.'
There are many instances of this that are not explicitly sociopathic, but are not exactly consonant with the positive path.
If I dislike someone and it seems irreconcilable even after extensive contemplation, then I'll feel free to say 'f*** that person,' without feeling guilty about it. If I want to see myself as a dominant and powerful person, and feel the confidence that comes with it, I will. If I want to dominate or control a situation where I believe I have good reason to do so, then I will. Even if I want to listen to music that I know has a deep Luciferian or STS influence (more common than many may think, which I may go into more detail about another time), I will do so without getting hung up on it.
There are benefits from consciously using my negative energy (which goes beyond only accepting it) that seem crucial to my stability and well being at this time. I have an idealized self, a powerful individual who doesn't break down in the face of extreme trauma, a persona I began to develop years before learning the nuances of the STS and STO dichotomy. That idealized self got me through a lot of difficult situations, and it also has very dominant, rugged, and calculating aspects that are at times consistent with the negative path.
I'm choosing to continue my life as that person without excessively worrying about the dichotomy.
These are some potential outcomes of this.
1. This ends up being part of the process of refining my lower energy centers, and / or part of the maximum 49% STS activity that positive entities can engage in while remaining positive. Eventually, I evolve past the need for dominance and power while still retaining security, or I find ways to express those qualities while minimizing their destructive effects.
or
2. Embodying that dominant and powerful persona ends up being inherently negative, and I end up deep into negative territory.
3. I go far into negative territory, but gain a level of awareness and competence that allows me to switch polarization, and clearly perceive and complete the necessary steps to resolve karmic baggage, without the difficulties I'm currently facing. If I still want to switch back at that point, this then turns into scenario 1.
There are inherently 'negative' aspects that all entities carry... The left side of the body, the lower pole that magnetically attracts experiences to oneself, the receptive energy that absorbs. For example, eating anything, even a plant, has the potential to violate the free will of that which is being eaten. There is always 'prey' in this equation. The difference for positive entities is giving the process of consumption a metaphysical context, elevating the process and that which is consumed to a sacred level through gratitude.
https://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/i..._1016.aspx
The drive to be a dominant and powerful person isn't as inescapable as say, the necessity to ingest food. For me, though, it's the only security and happiness I've known in this life, up until this point. I choose to embrace it and imbue it with a metaphysical aspect. Whether that ends up refining my lower energy centers for the eventual purpose of positivity, or inextricably ties me to the negative path... Both results serve The Creator at a high level, and either one is fine with me. So I'm going to continue my life as this person and see what happens.
Also, even if I were to end up ultimately polarizing negatively, it doesn't mean I would simply bow down to the current STS 'elite,' or those higher density negative entities. In this hypothetical scenario, I would be entering a game where I'm playing against them, regardless of potential short term arrangements. This option frees me from ensnarement in mourning my past traumas, as I recognize all harm, even harm out of ignorance, as merely part of the game. The freedom to engage in this side of the game replaces the sadness, rage, and 'unfairness' I may feel at my own wounds. Past trauma retroactively becomes a valuable lesson and liberating moment, where I learn the ruthless mentality and receive the seeds to refine it.
Again, these are just options and possible outcomes I've considered. For now, I'm focusing on stabilizing. Everything is up in the air after this.
This isn't a 'people hurt me, so I'm going to hurt other people indiscriminately' situation.
I'm giving myself freedom to express my shadow side, which all entities have, without seeing it as something 'wrong.'
There are many instances of this that are not explicitly sociopathic, but are not exactly consonant with the positive path.
If I dislike someone and it seems irreconcilable even after extensive contemplation, then I'll feel free to say 'f*** that person,' without feeling guilty about it. If I want to see myself as a dominant and powerful person, and feel the confidence that comes with it, I will. If I want to dominate or control a situation where I believe I have good reason to do so, then I will. Even if I want to listen to music that I know has a deep Luciferian or STS influence (more common than many may think, which I may go into more detail about another time), I will do so without getting hung up on it.
There are benefits from consciously using my negative energy (which goes beyond only accepting it) that seem crucial to my stability and well being at this time. I have an idealized self, a powerful individual who doesn't break down in the face of extreme trauma, a persona I began to develop years before learning the nuances of the STS and STO dichotomy. That idealized self got me through a lot of difficult situations, and it also has very dominant, rugged, and calculating aspects that are at times consistent with the negative path.
I'm choosing to continue my life as that person without excessively worrying about the dichotomy.
These are some potential outcomes of this.
1. This ends up being part of the process of refining my lower energy centers, and / or part of the maximum 49% STS activity that positive entities can engage in while remaining positive. Eventually, I evolve past the need for dominance and power while still retaining security, or I find ways to express those qualities while minimizing their destructive effects.
or
2. Embodying that dominant and powerful persona ends up being inherently negative, and I end up deep into negative territory.
3. I go far into negative territory, but gain a level of awareness and competence that allows me to switch polarization, and clearly perceive and complete the necessary steps to resolve karmic baggage, without the difficulties I'm currently facing. If I still want to switch back at that point, this then turns into scenario 1.
Quote:The further an entity has, what you would call, polarized, the more easily this entity may change polarity, for the more power and awareness the entity will have.
Those truly helpless are those who have not consciously chosen but who repeat patterns without knowledge of the repetition or the meaning of the pattern.
There are inherently 'negative' aspects that all entities carry... The left side of the body, the lower pole that magnetically attracts experiences to oneself, the receptive energy that absorbs. For example, eating anything, even a plant, has the potential to violate the free will of that which is being eaten. There is always 'prey' in this equation. The difference for positive entities is giving the process of consumption a metaphysical context, elevating the process and that which is consumed to a sacred level through gratitude.
https://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/i..._1016.aspx
The drive to be a dominant and powerful person isn't as inescapable as say, the necessity to ingest food. For me, though, it's the only security and happiness I've known in this life, up until this point. I choose to embrace it and imbue it with a metaphysical aspect. Whether that ends up refining my lower energy centers for the eventual purpose of positivity, or inextricably ties me to the negative path... Both results serve The Creator at a high level, and either one is fine with me. So I'm going to continue my life as this person and see what happens.
Also, even if I were to end up ultimately polarizing negatively, it doesn't mean I would simply bow down to the current STS 'elite,' or those higher density negative entities. In this hypothetical scenario, I would be entering a game where I'm playing against them, regardless of potential short term arrangements. This option frees me from ensnarement in mourning my past traumas, as I recognize all harm, even harm out of ignorance, as merely part of the game. The freedom to engage in this side of the game replaces the sadness, rage, and 'unfairness' I may feel at my own wounds. Past trauma retroactively becomes a valuable lesson and liberating moment, where I learn the ruthless mentality and receive the seeds to refine it.
Again, these are just options and possible outcomes I've considered. For now, I'm focusing on stabilizing. Everything is up in the air after this.