Did I just merge with Someone

[Ankh]

Chi/prana and the One Infinite Creator, regarding bodily experience, are felt, in my case, as the Force beginning in my feet and rising up through the whole body (except the spots that are blocked). When working with nexis the energy of the perticular nexi is felt either as outgoing, from the spine through the center and out, or ingoing from the front, through the center, and out of the spine. Energies are sometimes felt through the body in the middle of it when they transfer between nexis. Chi can also be felt in left and/or right side of the body as a stream of Force.

What happened today? I have to tell you from the beginning that it is very hard to describe using words.

I have one verterbra in the upper spine that has been bothering me for a very long time, until nine months ago when I started serious meditations every day. In the beginning I was concentrating on that vertebra and though it was a lot of sensations there, the tension in that vertebra has never left. I was imagining that when that tension would release, it would be like fireworks in my head. Well, after a while I got tired of that, because nothing spectacular was happening there.

When I was writing my book during that nine months period (a "sci-fi" novell, basically about "Wanderers") there was perticular sensation/perception that apperead. That perception grew stronger, much stronger, when I later came across the Ra material.

Lately, couple of weeks ago, this sensation grew very strong, but still it was perceived in "another plane" and I couldn't "touch" it or examine it with my conscious mind. It was just a perception that was strong, but it persistantly slipped away when I tried to "grab" it. That was very frustrating during this week!

Today that perception manifested itself in the above mentioned vertebra. Finally I could "touch" it! I started to meditate upon it. Nothing perticular happened at first, except the usual stuff happening in meditation, but nothing extraordinary. Then I felt instreaming of Force in the violet nexi. This instreaming was not perticular strong, but very noticeable. It went down and was felt both in nexis and the whole body. It stopped in green ray nexi. I "opened" myself up to that and merged with that. Just like that, the green nexi (where I have a lot of blockages) opened up, same thing happened with blue ray nexi. And here is where it will be difficult for me to explain what happened with just words. It felt like a very humble Being that was merging with me, in a very cautious way, respecting every blockage. This Being was following the focus point of my conscious thought in an extremly humble way. Where my focus of concentration went It instantly followed there, merging but still somehow merging with the heart, never left it and... and... I don't know how to describe it, guys.

Anyway, while this was going on, there appeared thoughts in my mind. Felt like inplant thoughts because at that moment I was too busy experiencing something... undescribable and didn't think at all. These thoughts had their own life and were similar to these: "This is how it feels to merge with another Creator. This is a little preview. This is a little understanding. This is much stronger and different in reality. When you merge with other Self you feel the essence of that Self." This Being was so humle, and so pure – genuine pure that pure is not a proper word, and at the same time Its humble intention to not alter or touch anything inside, just merge, was..... no words again.

When I meet people I like to look at them, smell them (not in a weird way, I just have an excellent sense of smell) and if it is possible to hug (touch) them (also hopefully not in a weird way). This gives me some kind of inner satisfaction, and I don't know if it gives me any kind of direct information about their being in my conscious mind, but I do like to think (I don't know if it true though) that this "merging in my own mind" gives me a bit of information about them and their state. "Merging" plays also a big part in my book. How it is done and what is felt and so on. What occured during today's meditation felt like "making love" but on spirit's level, ie merging.

The more I opened up the green nexi the more love was felt, but even when I did not concentrate on green nexi it was still opened while that Being was merging with me. The more I concentrated to open my whole self up the more intense that merging felt, but still in a very cautious way as that was intention of that Being. As some kind of subtle melting. There was still me – me and that Being, just uniting, feeling the essencies. Oh it is so hard to describe! It never took over me, or "possessed" me or anything in that direction, or clouded my mind. I was very conscious through the whole experience. As I mentioned there was a clear distinction between me and that Being. It was uniting with love on spirit's level with a great deal of respect, humble "to not touch anything" intentions.

When I focused my thought on yellow nexi the feeling got more intensed and there it felt like that Being took over by going down to orange, red and then disseapered through the legs. There I was, laying in the bed, and felt very distinctly that I was now alone. That Being has left. I can only imagine how it is going to feel when we go home and can do that with our whole group, then melting with bigger and bigger complexies until we melt with the One. And I can only pray that one day I can become as that Being and provide that service to others Self.

This is a sensitive information that I share with you, my brothers and sisters, and I hesitated if I wanted to post it here, but I need to know if anyone has experienced anything like this as well?