01-30-2011, 08:00 PM
(01-30-2011, 06:40 PM)peregrine Wrote:(01-30-2011, 02:25 PM)jeremy6d Wrote: To be honest, I'm afraid of what achieving this connection will demand of me, of the commitments I've made in my waking life, of how it will change who I think I am.
This has been a significant stumbling block for me as well, particularly the loss of identity part (implied for me in your "who I think I am" phrase).
I can relate to that, but lately when connecting to some kind of deep level of the self while accepting all kinds of "crazy" thoughts and visions that occur, and most of all the strong will to release the control of the self (from the self) it feels that "loss of identity" is an illusion. Thus conscious will of connecting to the "deeper" self, or higher self, or bigger self, or whatever word you wish, results at least for me, in feeling of knowing the self better than before. It feels like a dear old friend that I "forgot", suddenly so familiar, that when emerged it feels more geniune than ever.