Can you accept being a loser in this world?

[Cainite]

Among followers of Yeshoa, only st john was not martyred. he had mastered his fate
The others had chosen martyrdom preincarnatively, or fate itself had chosen it for them
Seeing that it's the most appropriate path onwards on their path to maturity. that would make
them harvastable very quickly. also their inner desire for kingdom of heaven must have been greater than their desire for material comfort, etc
they could also take another path.. master the fate the way john had done. but they weren't ready for that according to their own judgement too probably

I'm not saying that the other paths beside martyrdom of 4d are easier. so sometimes a person who has mastered the illusion chooses difficult things to go through, not usually because of their own growth, but to help. doing their particular mission may have bad consequences for them. they are still allowed to drop the mission or to nobly carry it out. knowing what's to come.

Yeshoa himself had the ability to not be harmed at all as john did.
But yeshoa had chosen and crafted that outcome to make a prophecy come true. step by step he played the role in the prophecy.