The Cultivation of Radical Honesty

[Sacred Fool]

Maybe "change of identity" is closer to what happens than "loss of identity"? You gain some, you lose some -- gradually. Once when I turned away because of fear of loss of identity, I was given a vision of myself merging with another being. There was no loss, only gain.

Then again, I'm probably too busy enjoying the flowers along the side of the road to be really anxious to get the process sped up. My feeling is that if it takes a lot of discipline, then there's some lack of honesty in the path. If the passion to move quicker is there, then the work requires less discipline, or rather, the discipline is a joy, a choice, and not controlling.

Identity
From my viewpoint it's the feeling of loss of identity that can be such an obstacle. It's something I have to work with a lot. I try to massage it and warm it up and encourage it to be more pliable. There's a whole lot there I'm unconsciously unwilling to relinquish.


Discipline
This word seems to scare a lot of people. As a musician and a tradesman I think of it as simply developing my craft. In this case, however, the instrument is my own being if we're talking about creating a discipline through which I more skillfully learn to know myself, accepting myself and become the Creatrix (as in post #5 above).